Not Quite Top Secret

I want to say thank you to evryone who helped out....

We are still in a difficult time, but the worst of the crisis is over. We have, with help, gathered the funds we needed to keep from losing our home...

Now the new adventure begins; where does the boat go? By monday we have to know if we anchor out on the river or stay in the marina, (each have their potential risks).

Also, our departure dates for movng the boat to Key West have moved from January or in the spring to November or December! Alan wants, desperately, to get us out of the area and away from our dockmaster.

(Continue following the sailing/boating/us moving adventure at http://www.schoonerboudicca.com)

Because of the change in departure date, Steve and I have moved our handfasting from December 23, (his b-day), to this Saturday! Our dearest friends have been invited... It should be an interesting affair!
It will be a midnight ceremony... Alan and my best friend Lizabeth will be joining us via conference call... the best man will also be officiating... we will have 4 flower girls, my 2 daughters, Steve's daughter, and our friend Andrew (a 19 year old guy who we are friends with... long story)

We are having a MAJOR issue! We've had a problem with the marina we're at. ... (long story)...

Now instead of weekly payments like we have been doing, our dock master wants FULL season's pay! We are short by about $1500! If we can't pay, we'll loose our home. We will be evicted and Boudicca will go up for a sheriff's auction.

CAN ANYONE HELP EVEN A LITTLE!!

I'm beyond a point of freaking out. We live pay check to pay check. It's one thing to come up with weekly payments, but another to "find" $1100...

Regina Marie: Helium – Where Knowledge Rules

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I just got a new application that allows me to post to my blogs easier. I have the ones here on livejournal and a couple on blogger.

Anyway, life has gone interestingly as of late. Alan went to FL. I am left at home trying to get the boat organized. Alan has announced he wants us to be heading for FL with the boat within a year. That leaves a lot of work to be done, granted, he'll be home in about 6 weeks... but then winter will be here.

I need to go through all our clothes and get rid of all that are trashed or don't fit. I need to clean the girls closet, paint it and get it ready for their stuff to be put in. I need to clear out the pilothouse as we prepare to get rid of it. And I need to sand and polyurethane the interior of Serendipity preparing her to be sold.

I'm also trying to get a couple blogs of mine "off the ground" as pro-blogs... which is a lot of work in itself. So, I'm online trying to get them built up and traffic to them, knowing that I also have work to do on the boat....

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Well, it's been at least two weeks since an update...

AJ's

It has been an interesting week. I've been pretty out of it; not sure quite why. Though yesterday, AJ took me to play mini-golf, that was fun. I'm trying to get family stuff organized, (like what will be our family last name, what are we doing about the wedding, etc...) and I need to get a room ready for AJ to move in. I've been tired and a bit cranky, and the girls have been too. There is so many things to do...

Well, my pregnancy test came out negative, then I got my period the next day. C'est la vie. We'll try next cycle. I'm disappointed, but I know I just started trying. And over the past month, I've learned a lot about fertility that I never knew. Hopefully, that knowledge and some luck will help me in the coming months so I can get pregnant, and pass on info so Jeny can too.

Other then that, it's just so hot. We're all getting a bit cranky in this heat. We still have work to do, but it's slow going as all we want to do is try to get cooler. I'm trying to get the girls to clean their closet, then I'll have them take cool showers. I need to get my room cleaned up and work more on the storage room. ...So much to do, so little time... And such heat...

Well, as most of you know, I'm trying to get pregnant. I've gotten to the point I'm expecting my period any day, any time now.

I'm constantly wondering: Are my breasts tender? Do they usually get tender around my period? How long do my periods normally last? Have I been more moody then usual? Have I been having any food cravings? (Yes! Bacon. I've almost become obsessed with bacon.) I have a hard time remembering details like those. I just started documenting all those details, but as I just started, I have almost no data except what we can remember.

I'm going to be buying a test today. I'll take it tomorrow morning. I wanted to buy it last night and take it this morning but Alan asked me to buy it today instead. This way, I'll have the answer on Father's Day. AJ's working, but Alan will be home with me. I'll call AJ and let him know as soon as I know.

So, I wait...

Today I'm moving stuff. We have one of our bedrooms filled with books, my sewing machine, defunct computers, guitars, and several other things. I need to move all that to the livingroom and sort it. Then I'll either get my men to build bookshelves, do it myself, or pack it back up and move it to the V-berth. lordwolve needs to move in this month and we need to make room. The V was going to be his, but the bed is to small. So, we need to find another room, and the first step is moving our storage room to another room.

I have the first step done. I got the biggest box, practically a trunk, of books out. Now, I just need to get everything else out... The bed it covered and piled up.

Other then that, things are ok... Except the dock master's driving me nuts. She's harassing my friends when they come over. She's done it twice now. ...Just because she has no friends is no reason to attack mine. The first time I understood part of it... They didn't know where the bathroom was and pissed on the property. When she told me she kept going on after I said I'd talk to them; she went on and on. I finally said "THANK you, I'll talk to them" and walked away. I managed to keep a smile the whole time. (I was/am so proud of that.) Then she started her inquisitor act on a friend another time, too. So I'm hoping she knocks it off before my friends quit coming over.

Other then that, things are normal. Life as usual. The kids have been fighting some earlier, but are playing nice now. (They're playing Pirate Dice.) Alan's working hard. I'm trying to stay sane(ish).

witchabroad said we'd go out in Philly sometime before she leaves. It should be a good time. We haven't had much time to really talk and I'm hoping we'll get a chance to get to know each other some. She seems like a cool chic.

lalala...

What are your favorite and least favorite words? Any reasons why?

I don't have A word, except a very few, but there are some words in combinations.

"you can't", "normal", "socializing" when they're asking about homeschooling, "that's a sin", "do you know what the Bible says about that",

that's all I can think of right now... I'm sure more will come to me.

One of Alan's (and my) friends, Jac, is renting Serendipity, (our WestSail 32 that we lived in for 2 years), from us. We've been wanting to move her to a marina in Philadelphia for a month now. But due to several factors, she's still next to us. Alan was all ready to move her yesterday, then I got out Serendipity's registration... It expired in December.

...So, today I'm going to need to renew her registration. AJ is going to help me. We're going to do it online. Then, when he picks me up, he'll bring the print out for me. I'll give it to Jac, and she'll watch the girls today till Alan comes home, they'll move the boat. ...The girls are going to help move the boat.

Today, I get to help AJ get his school work done. He has credits he has to get done for work. I already helped him do about 4-6 credits. He still needs an additional 8-12. I want him to get most of them done today.

So, it'll be interesting...

One hell of a weekend...

Friday I didn't go to poetry night. I had to try to get the boat ready for Alan's b-day party Saturday. I didn't get as much done as I wanted. Saturday the girls and I did a lot of cleaning done. It look(s) pretty good. There's always more to do, but it is a good start.

Then, the party... Alan had a good time! I'm always worried about that for his b-day. It was a good party, most of our friends showed up. I was thrilled about how it turned out. Lots of fun.

We're going to be having birthday parties all summer, july is AJ's, august is mine... crazy!!

From my wacky world...

So, today is Alan's birthday, and he has to work today. Hopefully he'll try to make it a short day. AJ will be over later after a class he has this afternoon. And Alan's party is Saturday.

All of which means I have more work to do today. I got the pilothouse taken care of, (mostly), yesterday. The girls need to take care of their rooms... There will be other kids here for the party, and I know the condition of the rooms. I also need to clean... Every other room... Lol

This party should be interesting. Our regular "crew" is going to be here, my sister might come, a few friends from our poly group are coming, a couple friends from YEARS ago are coming. And witchabroad is coming too.

It's gonna be fun!

Rob and Jeny ended up having a cookout. We invited the whole crowd, (minus those that were otherwise occupied or out of town). ...Josh, Banshee, Carrie, (and one of their friends), Becky and her son Nate, us (me, Alan, AJ, Kali and Lily) and Rob, Jeny and there daughter, Lillith also one of their other friends, Ron.

It was a hell of a party. I'd never been to an all friend holiday cookout. Blissful! We talked, ran after kids, joked, wrestled... Cooked.

...Life is good.

So, here is the latest update, with a summary.

Monday, I proposed to AJ. Tuesday he, basically, said yes. So we're going to do a year long trial marriage. More details to be worked out on the ceremony, but it'll probably be the second weekend in May when Alan and I do out renewal of vows.

Thursday, AJ told his best friend, (who is also one of our really good friends). Then yesterday, the announcement to our friends. (Alan explained later to everyone what was going on, 'cause AJ was kind of unclear.)

Also on Thursday, my men switched roles. Alan was saying "no" or at least "not now" and AJ was more open to it. Now, AJ wants to wait, and Alan wants to try. Alan even announced to our friends we're gonna try! ... There's a change!

And last night was so cool! We all hung out for a while, then Alan wanted to go home... So I took him home at 12:30am. AJ wanted to go home around 2:30am, so he took the bike home... I stayed till 5! I have never stayed out like that after my family went home... It was so neat. Hung out and cuddled with my (our) friends. Very cool!

I figured out what's been bothering me...

He is less then a year out of a 4 year relationship. For her, he moved half way around the country to start a new life together, only to be dumped before he'd even finished moving them in.

I know I'm ready for a commitment. But I'm afraid that I am a rebound... Not that I have a problem with it. Only that (1) I don't want to plan a wedding to have it fall apart because he's ready to move into a "real" relationship, and (2) I don't want him to feel trapped by marriage (and/or a baby) when/if he knows it's time to move on.

We still need to talk out details. We did talk last night... He said, (for all intents and purposes), yes.

My mind is going in ten directions at once. I have some work to around the boat, but I can't focus on it. I took my meds and I'm hoping that will help. I'm also drinking a Monster energy drink. ...I have an upset tummy and my throat hurts.

My honeys are so patient with me. Alan has been putting up with my moodiness and giddyness alternating. AJ has been very reassuring about it being ok about asking.

Alan is going to be going to Rob abductions Jeny's to help finish painting their room. So, I'm going to try to get some cleaning done while he's gone; maybe I'll fold the laundry and get it put away and gather all the trash to go out.

This week, I also want to paint the kitchen and clean the pilothouse. I also need to get the laundry all together to get done.

And if that isn't enough, AJ's room still isn't ready nor are any of the things he needs to move in.

The weekend has been pretty good, but stressful. Friday I don't thin we even read poetry. There was plenty of music, though. Jeny even played cello for us! ...She was such a beautiful voice. It was fun, good friends, good conversation.

Saturday, Jac was driven home by her mom. Elizabeth, her mom, stayed with her till today. Anyway, that night, Jac went to see her boyfriend, and Elizabeth came over and hung out with us. We drank and chatted... It was fun.

Sunday, we went to Rob and Jeny's. The kids had fun like always. Jeny was painting their bedroom. She chose chocolate brown and light pink... Victorian valentines colors...

That night I went to a party. Some of our friends run a magazine and it was the magazine's anniversary party. It was all in all a small party, but that was perfect, just close friends.

Over the past several days I've been thinking about certain things alot; two things in particular. One is having a baby, the other is a handfasting. My head is spinning. We've only been together for 6 months, but I feel sure of it.

Today I finally mentioned "a year and a day". (It's a pagan tradition of a year and a day trial marriage.) He asked what I ment, he didnt want to assume. I asked what he thought I ment... He knew. To make a long story short, we'll need to talk about it. ...I was so nervous. Like a girl telling a boy she has a crush on him. I basically did... I proposed. Lol ...

Now I guess I wait till we can talk. It'll give him time to think about what I'm asking.
Waiting.

Monday night, I got a phone call. Lois was acting funny and was taken to the ER. AJ was there all night. I went over to the house at 11am. At 5pm, I picked up Reuben and took him to the hospital. I finally brought AJ home at 7:30pm.

I'm worried for her. I spent the night with AJ to make sure he is ok... Poor thing was so tired.

Now I need to focus on him and any support I can give, plus that a friends mother will be coming over this weekend...

Today is another holiday. I sometimes have problems with holidays... They go all wonky. Today is no different.

It started well enough. I woke up late, and Alan got out of bed and made pancakes.

Then AJ started playing video games with the girls. Instead of letting them learn to play by trial and error, he was telling them what to do. Then we had a lovely pancake breakfast, and Alan let me know we was going to be gone most of the day... He's taking a friend home to visit her parents, two to three hours away. AJ layed down to tap a nap, he has a headache. And before much longer, he's gonna be going home.

It'll just be me and the girls home. Not that I don't like spending time with them, I do... But there's no one else to be with.
My mom hasn't even returned my two calls...

Happy Mother's day...

I feel crappy today. I feel disconnected from everyone I love. Alan goes off working and doing his own stuff. AJ's working too, and when we spend time we don't talk much unless I'm throwing a fit... We usually watch movies or he plays with his phone or is on the computer ...

We had a party Saturday. It was so much fun. The boat was alive with conversation, music and laughter. Since then, I've barely talked to anyone.

Sunday AJ had to go home, and Alan went to pick up the girls from our friends, I was having an after party withdrawal. I figured Alan would be home within a few hours, he left at 1pm. He didn't get back till 11:30pm.

Monday, they both worked, but Alan got done early. He stopped in to see a friend and didn't come home till evening. And I didn't talk to AJ till 11pm.

Tuesday, yesterday, they both worked. Alan got off early again, and he picked up a friend who's going to be renting out smaller boat. They got cleaning supplies and worked on the boat some, then he took her home. I was asleep by the time he got home.

I found out that a couple of my friends relationship isn't as picture perfect as it seems. They have similar problems as Alan and I have had. Instead of me feeling closer for it, (things in common and all, I feel like withdrawing more. In addition, it feels like knowing that is causing me to notice more issues in my life.

I feel distant and lonely. Like my relationships are on the rocks, battered by a storm. Like I need to walk on egg shells just to keep my life together.

I messaged Alan and AJ telling them I was lonely and upset, that I felt like my life was coming apart at the seems. Alan wrote back that he was feeling like that too, that he'd call me later. AJ called and told me to go outside some...

I feel like I can't really tell anyone what is going on for me. Who would it help to tell? No one. Who would understand? Very few...



...Just talked to Alan. I'm feeling a little bit better. Got a few things cleared up...

We talk about everything; explain things we do and why things are. Also, I don't usually give "the short answer" to My girls, I give them the whole story. When they no longer appear to be interested, I stop. Sometimes they ask me to continue, sometimes we're done with that topic.

My girls each have their own interests. Kali especially loves history. She likes Tudor/Elizabethan history best. She has sat through BBC shows on that period that would bore most adults to death, yet she would beg to watch the next one soon as the last was over.
Lily loves cooking and cooking shows. She could watch them all day, (and did when we had cable). And right now, she's really into pirates.

They both are learning Spanish, (I'm learning French), they play learning games on the computer, we watch movies and talk about them, we love historically based movies like The 13th Warrior. They read with and to me. They've helped Alan and me with engine work. They can steer the boat. ?I'm working on a script for a no-budget movie and they'll help with that. We go to a poetry night every Friday. They also enjoy workbooks in all different subjects.

So, all in all, we hang out or go out to do things, and we talk alot... About anything and everything. And if we don't know, we look it up!

Regina

Things are going good. I got a new phone yesterday, a pda phone, so I can write blogs and be online better! But my last week was hard. I got sick, Alan got sick, then I ran out of meds and started withdrawal. We ended up finding another pill to get me through and off to the dr.s today… But I'm just concentrating on my phone so I don't worry.

Things have been going good. We went to the poetry reading Fri, and yesterday, we went to see Grindhouse ... it was great! I had a bit of a fit yesterday, I started getting a bit freaked because I realized just how hard I'm falling for AJ. We ended up talking about it and I'm feeling much... safer. La la la... to my mom's now for bunny shitting chocolate eggs day.

In the NY Times today there was an article about the bald eagles of Catalina Island. There are 20 eagles, of them, there are 4 breeding pairs and one "unusual" Threesome.